This is a rant. I really am sorry that my whole blog has become a rant it makes me sound like such a bitter person but venting is somewhat helpful.

I am really sick of school. Isn't senior year supposed to be so easy and just fly by? Apparently not. I'm actually being a little overdramatic it's not that I have a lot of work, just absolutely no time to do it. And my life has become extremely repetitive for me every single week I do the exact same thing over and over again. I'll give you a recap of what I did last week...and the week before that and the week before that.

monday- school. homework.usually i just hang out at home and try to catch up on school workfor the rest of the night
tuesday-school. dance 4 till ten. homework. shower. sleep
wednesday-school.dance 4 till ten. homwork. shower. sleep
thursday-school.dance 4 till ten. homework. shower. sleep
friday-school. work 4 till 9. shower. maybe go out with friends afterwards?
saturday- dance eleven till two. this is my day off:)
sunday- work 7 to 3. shower. homework. sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

I do this exact same thing every single week. I have no life. I dance 18 hours a week so I'm too tired to do anything else when I actually have free time so I just sleep or do homework that I never have time for. And the sad thing is I probably won't make dance my career so where is all of this going? Absolutely no where. Don't get me wrong I love dance more than anything but sometimes it just takes up so much of my life that I don't really see the point in it anymore. And then there are these whiny kids who are always like "I had (whatever sport they do) practice till seven last night and I'm so exhausted I don't know how I'm going to make it through the day. Big deal when you were getting ready to go to sleep last night I was at the ballet barre sweating my ass off. Again sorry for this rant I don't even know how to be mean to people so I don't know how I wrote this but I apoligize if I sound really bitter. Well I'm off to work on physics! Good night journalism class.

College....(sigh)

I am finally done with the college application process...... I think. It has possibly been one of the most stressful experiences of my life, except for maybe getting my period (Ha! just kidding I told you I'd get you back Doug and Eli for only writing about sports). Now I'm just sitting and waiting for three letters from the colleges I applied to seeing if they want me at their school or not. It doesn't help that the other day I watched that Accepted movie on TV where the main character doesn't get into school anywhere so now I'm basically just terrified that I won't get in anywhere and I'll have to go to MCC and live at home for the next ten years and have no future and end up working in Burger King or some fabulous food establishment. And half of my friends have already been accepted into the schools of their dreams while I'm sitting here biting my nails. Granted I'm probably just being a little over dramatic but I'll excuse myself for it. Even when I get accepted to a school (cross your fingers) it's only the beginning of my stress. I plan to double major in dance and history so I'll basically have to get used to not sleeping at all during the next four years of my life. I'll just stay up and blog while I'm not sleeping!

I honestly have no idea what to write in my blog. What do people even put in blogs? But anyways I'll write about how unbelievably obnoxious our school is, sorry in advance this will most likely be rant. So yesterday in oasis i desperately needed to use a computer to finish my position paper (thank you Mr. Bielinksi for making us do a work cited). So I walk into the oasis and sign in and then I try to sign out to go up to the computer lab or library so i can get some work done. When I'm signing my name on the sheet I realize that there's only one spot open in the computer lab open and no spots open in the library so I'm all excited that I got there first. And then some kid by an undisclosed name practically shoves me out of the way and throws his pass at Ms. Capozzi so she signs it first. She lets him go up to the computer lab while I'm standing there waiting for her to sign my pass. Meanwhile this kid is someone who I'm 99% sure wasn't even going to the computer lab and even if he did he was just going to sit there and play games or watch music videos on the computer for eighty minutes. I asked her if I can still go and she's like "Absolutely not" so obviously I got kind of annoyed and apparently I rolled my eyes or something and she proceeded to scream at me and tell me that I had to calm down and that she's sick of kids yelling at her for absolutely nothing. This was unbelievably aggravating since I wasn't doing anything rude to her in the slightest way so I just walked away. I have dance on Thursday nights from 4-10 so it's not like I could go home after school and do it that night. So I just left with one of my friends who has early dismissal and went home and finished my paper. Me, being a huge nerd, have always been absolutely terrified of skipping school and I've never done it. Until yesterday I never realized how easy it is. You'd think the guys who stands in the little huts would be suspicious of a bunch of girls piled into a car but they didn't even stop us.
But anyways now I'm all paranoid that I'm going to get caught, but I really don't think I did anything wrong. I mean of course I know that skipping school is wrong and that you really aren't supposed to do it but it's not like I skipped school to miss it. I skipped school so I could actually go home and do work instead of sitting in the cafeteria for 80 minutes wasting oxygen. I just think if the school can't provide me resources I need that I should be able to and get them for myself, and if that means leaving school because I can't use one of 200 computers in this school than so be it.